Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Gonna write this one in Indonesian since I'm not in the mood for English.

Kepuengen ke Sutos ke Classroom (?) itu beli notes.
Tapi teman2 tidak ada yang mau ke sutosss :((
pdhl ketok e apik2.
Pengen mbikin buku penuh testi e teman2.
IA6, XA, temanq yang laen <3
Soale kan wes terasa nek mau pisah kabeh.
Jadi kepuengen pol bikin notes gituan.
Rencanaeee nek jadi notes e mau tak baca di pesawat ke Melb.
Pasti nangis2 gr2 langsung kangen :P
Tapi ga ada waktu wes an :((
Aku sedihhhh :((
Rasae wes gak ada sedetik pun untuk ngurusi testi2an segala.
tinggal 3 minggu lho UNAS :((

what we could have been, 6:01 PM.
Monday, February 22, 2010

my babyyyyy :D

belum dimasuki application apa2.
anyone help meee
aku katrok gak isa masukno application :(

what we could have been, 5:35 PM.
Sunday, February 21, 2010

bought the iTouch!!!



gonna post pics laterrr.

what we could have been, 8:29 PM.
Thursday, February 18, 2010

My body isnt perfect, it is in fact so imperfect.
I dont walk with confidence, I looked down to my feet a whole lot.
I get into fights with my parents and friends.
Some nights I'd rather be alone than out with anyone.
I cry over the smallest things sometimes.
There are days that I get through with forced smiles and fake laughs.
Sometimes I try to convince myself that things are okay when they're not.
I feel ugly sometimes.
I'm not ugly, but I'm not beautiful.
I dont look as good in real life as I do in pictures.
There are some nights that I cry myself to sleep.
I constantly think I'm not good enough.
I'm imperfect, but I'm perfectly me :)
I just need someone to realize this.
I need someone to know when I'm faking my smiles and laughs.
I need someone to say, "Are you sure?", when I say, "I'm fine"
I need someone to actually understand what I'm goin through.

: |

what we could have been, 5:39 PM.
Wednesday, February 17, 2010

havent told you bout the TO 2 yet, havent I?
Here goes.
IND : 7,60.
ING : 9,00
MATH : 7,00 (:D !!!)
PHYSICS : 5,25 :((((
CHEM : 6,75 :(((
BIOLOGY : 8,25 !!!! 

the green ones r decreasing from the first TO.
The bold red ones are...
And the red ones r increasing :))


what we could have been, 10:19 PM.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010

finally watched Valentine's Day!!
Super romantic and funny movie :D
Watched it with friends after the praktikum review :)
Went to PTC.
Got home at 9pm.
Was in a really great mood.

Is not again now.
I feel unappreciated.
Mum always sounded that she has this view that I'm the stupidest person ever alive.
I'm not.
I'm not as clever as people who won Math olympics.
I'm not as smart as those scientist.
I'm not as diligent as my sister.
But that doesn't mean that I'm stupid
Every single grade I mentioned is always a failure to her.
It's like evernthough I got 100, when ONE test come and I got 60, she got all mad and talked to me like I'm stupid and always get this bad, horrible, horrible mark. 
No, I'm not stupid.

Okayyyy, back to the movie.
LOVE Reed!!! He was played by Ashton Kutcher.
So sweet, romantic, and superrrrrrrr handsome in this movie <3
And LOL-ing when Taylor Swift do the dance.
Funny stuff.
And also when Anne Hathaway took the ball that covered in rubber and *ctasssss* XD
also when Queen Latifah took the ruler and *ctarrrrrrrrrr* XDXDXD

I Hate Valentine's Day dinner

"They're mating, they're fighting, and I'm in the zoo with you" :)



what we could have been, 10:44 PM.
Sunday, February 14, 2010


source : paramore.net

what we could have been, 11:23 PM.

Happy Lunar New Year, for those who are celebrating :)

The wish:
Get a permission to Bali without tears and sadness.
The boy.

The reality:
Cooked some amazing stuff with mum and auntie and the maids :)
Crab and corn soup, ekado (it's like wonton but it has telur puyuh too inside it), sour and sweet chicken, cah baby kailan with mushroom, and fried noodle :D
Oh, before the delicioso feast, I was crying my eyes out.
It's the cry that is so hard, that you cant breath.
That cry.
Like 30mins or smthg.
Because all that Bali stuff and dad was mad about smthg else but he lais it ALL on me.

By the wayyyy.
In the morning, my eyes were kinda swollen.
But not for long.
At 7am , the family and I went to the church.
9am - 11am, we were waiting.
Waiting for mum's cousin to come by and kionghi2an with my grandma.
The grandma is the oldest so almost everyone came to our house.
While dad is the youngest so we must go to the elder's.
At 11am, mum's couz was not here yet, so me mum and dad decided to just go.
Went to my amu's house.
Got 5 angpaos :D
4 of 'em are from the people I didnt even know, but they know my dad.
Then went to dad's older brother house.
Got another angpao :D
Met koko sinyo, my couz who is a chief of surgeon in Jakarta.
He's here for the last assignment, he's here like 3 months or so.
Yes, it's weird, the koko sinyo thing LOL.
Ate lunch there.
The food's ALWAYS great there :D
went home, got another angpao from mum's cuz.
She left it at my auntie :D
anddddd mum and dad also gave me an angpao :D
happy happy day :D
I'm rich muahahahahahahaah.
Now I can buy that iTouch.

Should've bought it, like, today.
But the time's short, so no iTouch today.
Maybe next week.
the Bali thing, I wont tell you until I tell my girls tomorrow.
You can guess, though.
The boy is not coming.
Of course he's not coming, he's on the other side of the world.

But overall today was amazingggg :D

Oh, I bake some brownies today ! 
Gonna bring it over to school tomorrow :))


what we could have been, 6:54 PM.
Friday, February 12, 2010

so the form that my parents has to sign,  
the form that is going to be signed if they allow me to go,
is already out.
And the deadline's on Monday.
so I have to, like, convince him about this over the weekend.
At Xinjia.

I havent talk about it again with dad.
Maybe he'll permit me to go.
Maybe not.
I'll be devastated if he says NO and unwilling to sign the paper.
I guess I'll cry. :'(
Since I'm gonna be missing the prom, and not saying goodbye to the whole school, eventhough I dont know a lot of 'em.

Earlier today,
Bu Vicy asked the class about this.
I raised my hand and told the whole class.
Everyone was really kind :)
They came up with these sentences that I *maybe* can say to dad.
Thank you :)

Science Six has been great this year.
Maybe because we realize that our time is short.
Well, our together time, is short.
in a month, we'll face the UAN.
then Bali.
then uni.
the goodbyes.
my post doesnt make any sense today, yeah?
Oh well. :P

I'm thinking I shud leave a quote every single day.

source : weheartit.com

what we could have been, 5:38 PM.
Monday, February 1, 2010

EVERYONE in school is ecstatic about Bali.
Our school farewell is there and Father Alex said yes.
Unfortunately, I might not come with.
Prayyyyy for me so dad lets me go, since it'll be the last time I'll see my beloved beloved friends before I'm going to Melbourne.
Yes, some may go to the airport and say goodbye.
But I dont want that to be my last memories with the girls.

I want Bali, the prom, and the fun that I'll have there. :(

what we could have been, 7:05 PM.


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