Wednesday, January 27, 2010


Believe in Me - Demi Lovato

[Verse 1]
I'm losing myself
Trying to compete with everyone else
Instead of just being me
Don't know where to turn
I've been stuck in this routine
I need to change my ways
Instead of always being weak

I don't wanna be afraid
I wanna wake up feeling beautiful..today
And know that I'm okay
Cause everyone's perfect in unusual way
So you see, I just wanna believe in me
La la la la la la la la

[Verse 2]
The mirror can lie
Doesn't show you what's inside
And it, it can tell you your full of life
It's amazing what you can hide
Just by putting on a smile

I don't wanna be afraid
I wanna wake up feeling beautiful..today
And know that I'm okay
Cause everyone's perfect in unusual way
So you see, I just wanna believe in me

I'm quickly finding out
I'm not about to break down
Not today
I guess I always knew
That I had all the strength to make it through

I got to be afraid
I'm going to wake up feeling beautiful..today
And know that I'm okay
Cause everyone's perfect in unusual way
So you see, now, now I believe in me
Now I believe in me


I loveee Demi :))
She's sooo pwettayyyy
The 3rd pic is from her video 'La La Land', funny stuff :D

what we could have been, 3:59 PM.
Tuesday, January 26, 2010

I've been crying for 2 days.
I hate myself for hating this house.
I hate myself bcs I break down easily.
I hate it that my parents never finish listening to my words.
I hate that I often get into a fight with my parents and aunts and grandma.
I hate that my auntie always asks the wrong question at the wrong time and force me to answer it.
I hate it when I say "ya nggak tau", my auntie asks again, "ya rasae yak apa lho kok gak tau"
I hate it that I always get mad after that.
I hate it that I rarely get peace and quiet in this house.
I hate that I often feel that my dog is the only one that can calms me down.
I hate it that everyone is asking for my help at the same time and demand me to finish it at the very same time and keeps yelling at me when I was doing someone else's request.
I hate it that I'm all alone in facing these troubles.
I hate it that I hate a lot of stuff.
I hate it that I've been crying a lot.
I hate it that I have to wake up tomorrow with a smile.
Smiling to my friends, cracking up jokes, telling them nothing.
I hate myself for saying "I can take this. I can. I have to," when I cant.
I hate myself for telling myself that I'm fine.
I hate myself for getting angry easily.
I hate it.
I hate this feeling.
I hate hate.

what we could have been, 9:15 PM.

okayyy the results are out.
this is the MOST embarassing scores I have ever received.

Scores according to my teacher's answers, without scanners :
Math : 5,00.
Physics : 6,00.
Chemistry : 7,75.
Biology : 6,20.
Indonesian : 7,75
English : 9,20.

According to the school's scanner:
Math : 4,50 (!!!)
Physics : 5,50.
Chemistry : 7,25.
Biology : 6,20.
Indonesian : 7,50.
English : 8,80.

Idk why it came out differently.
The second result was based on my teacher's answers too.
Maybe I should change my pencil.
Gonna try Stabilo, ppl said it's super bold.
I hate the fact that I actually knew that I can do better, but I didnt.
Oh the good news is, I pass the try out.
Gonna try harder for the 2nd and 3rd try out :)
How's yoursss ppl? :D

what we could have been, 7:05 PM.


It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag 10 people. Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real. . .nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.

1. What is your name: Claudia
2. A four Letter Word: Cold
3. A boy's Name: Carl
4. A girl's Name: Catherine
5. An occupation: choreographer
6. A color:  charcoal
7. Something you wear: cardigan
8. A food: cereal
9. Something found in the bathroom: cabinet
10. A place: canada
11. A reason for being late: C...
12. Something you shout: cakkkkkkkk
13. A movie title: Charlie's Angels
14. Something you drink: cocktail
15. A musical group: corrs, the
16. An animal: cat
17. A street name: century park boulevard :P I googled this one
18. A type of car: CRV
19. A song title: Catch Me - Demi Lovato
20. A verb: cut

SUPPOSEDLY if you've seen over 110 films, you have no life. Mark the ones you've seen. There are 215 films on this list. Copy this list, go to your own Facebook account, paste this as a note. Then, put x's next to the films you've seen, add them up, change the header adding your number, and click post at the bottom. Have fun.

Teen/ Romance:
(x) The Cinderella Story
(x) Another Cinderella Story
(x) Step Up
(x) Step Up 2
(x) High School Musical
(x) High School Musical 2
(x) High School Musical 3
(x) Hannah Montana Movie
(x) Enchanted
(x ) Syndey White
Total: 10

(x) She's the Man
(x) License to Wed
(x) The Break-up
(x) 13 going to 30
(x) 27 Dresses
(x) P.s I Love You
(x) Made of Honour
(x) What Happens in Vegas
(x) Get Smart
( ) The Princess Brides
Total: 9

(x) Camp Rock
(x) Wild Child
(x) Ella Enchanted
(x) The Princess Diaries
(x) The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement
( ) First Dates
(x) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
(x) Hotel For Dogs
( ) Just Married
(x) Freaky Friday
Total: 8

(x) The Hot Chick
( ) Sleepover
(x) Confessions Of a Shopaholic
(x) Twilight
(x) Nancy Drew
(x) The Devil Wears Prada
( ) No Reservations
(x) Perfect Man
( ) Australia
(x) Never Been Kissed
Total: 7

(x) Yes Man
(x) Bedtimes Story
(x) The Pink Panther
(x) The Pink Panther 2
(x) Marley & Me
(x) Cheetah Girls
(x) Cheetah Girls 2
( ) Bratz
(x) Haunted Mansion
( ) Mall Cop
Total: 8

( ) The 40-year-old virgin
(x) Night in the Museum
(x) Night in the Museum 2
(x) Evan Almighty
(x) Bruce Almighty
( ) White Chicks
( ) Neverending Story
( ) Meet the Spartans
( ) Meet the Parents
( ) Meet the Fockers
Total: 4

( ) Scream
( ) Scream 2
( ) Scream 3
( ) Scary Movie
( ) Scary Movie 2
( ) Scary Movie 3
( ) Scary Movie 4
(x) American Pie
( ) American Pie 2
( ) American Pie Band Camp
Total: 1

(x) Harry Potter 1: The Sorcerer’s Stone
(x) Harry Potter 2: The Secret Chamber
(x) Harry Potter 3: Prisoner of Azkaban
(x) Harry Potter 4: Goblet of Fire
(x) Harry Potter 5: Order of Phoenix
(x) Lord of the Rings Fellowship of the Ring
( ) Lord of the Rings The Two Towers
( ) Lord of the Rings Return Of the King
(x) Chronicles Of Narnia: The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe
(x) Chronicles Of Narnia: Prince Caspian
Total: 8

(x) Indiana Jones and the Raiders of the Lost Ark
( ) Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom
( ) Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
(x) Indiana Jones and the Crystal Skull
(x) The Mummy
( ) The Mummy 2
( ) The Mummy 3
( ) Journey to the Center of Earth
( ) City of Ember
(x) Finding Neverland
Total: 4

(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man's Chest
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean 3: At World's end.
( )X-Men
( ) X-2
( ) X-3
(x) Spider-Man
(x) Spider-Man 2
(x) Spider Man 3
(x) King Kong
Total: 7

( ) Hellboy
( ) Star Wars Ep. I The Phantom Menace
( ) Star Wars Ep. II Attack of the Clones
(x) Star Wars Ep. III Revenge of the Sith
(x) Star Wars Ep. IV A New Hope
(x) Star Wars Ep. V The Empire Strikes Back
(x) Star Wars Ep. VI Return of the Jedi
(x) Underdog
(x) A Series Of Unfortunate Events
(x) Bat Man - The Dark Knight
Total: 7

Action/ Thriller
( ) The Matrix
( )The Matrix Reloaded
( )The Matrix Revolutions
( )Terminator 2
( )Terminator 3
(x) Ocean's Eleven
(x) Ocean's Twelve
(x) Ocean’s Thirteen
(x) Casino Royale 007
Total: 5

(x) Bourne Identity
( ) Bourne Supremecy
( ) Underworld
( ) Butterfly Effect
(x) Death Note
(x) Death Note 2
( ) Death Note 3: L Change the world
( ) Resident Evil 1
( ) Resident Evil 2
( ) I, Robot
Total: 3

(x) Rush Hour
(x) Rush Hour 2
(x) Rush Hour 3
( ) Mission Impossible 1
( ) Mission Impossible 2
(x) Mission Impossible 3
( ) I am Legend
( ) Predator I
( ) Predator II
( ) Signs
Total: 4

( ) Saw
( ) Saw II
( ) Saw III
( ) Saw IV
( ) Saw V
( ) The Grinch
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning
( ) The Ring
( ) The Ring 2
Total: 0

( ) Final Destination
( ) Final Destination 2
( ) Final Destination 3
( ) Ghost Ship
( ) From Hell
( ) Child's Play
( ) Seed of Chucky
( ) Bride of Chucky
( ) Gothika
( ) Nightmare on Elm Street
Total: 0

( ) The Grudge
( ) The Grudge 2
( ) The Haunted Apartment
( ) Siren
( ) Silent Hill
(x) The Mask
( ) Son Of The Mask
( ) Alone
( ) Omen
( ) House Of Wax
Total: 1

( ) The Eye
( ) The Eye 2
( ) Shutter
( ) When the Stranger call
( ) The Fog
( ) The Orphanage
( ) The Skulls
( ) Cruel Intentions
( ) Cruel Intentions 2
( ) House of 1000 Corpses
Total: 0

(x) Lilo & Stitch
(x) Ice Age
(x) Ice Age 2: The Meltdown
(x) Madagascar
(x) Madagascar 2
(x) Kung Fu Panda
(x) Bolt
(x) Wall-E
(x) Monster Inc
(x) Shark Tale
Total: 10

(x ) Shrek
(x ) Shrek 2
(x ) Shrek 3
(x) Finding Nemo
(x) ET
(x) Cars
(x) Ratatouille
(x) Toy Story
(x) Toy Story 2
(x ) The Incredibles
Total: 10

( ) Little Miss Sunshine
( ) I Am Sam
( ) The Day After Tomorrow
(x) Coach Carter
(x) The Last Dance
( ) To Kill A Mocking Bird
( ) Conrack
( ) Midnight Sun
(x) Little Black Book
( ) Rwanda Genocide
Total: 3

(x) Ten Things I Hate About You
(x) Titanic
(x) Romeo & Juliet
( ) Frankenstein
( ) A Midsummer Night Dream
Total: 3

total movies i watched : 112.

It's official. I have no life. :|

what we could have been, 6:57 PM.
Sunday, January 24, 2010

TO is overr!
super relieved.
buttt my grades r not gooddddd. except english.
got 11 wrong out of 40 in chemistry = 7,75.
got 4 wrong out of 50 in English = 9,2. :D
got 20 wrong out of 40 in Math = 50.

havent checked the rest.

My math is doomed.

what we could have been, 12:28 PM.
Thursday, January 21, 2010

picssss from the proficiat photoshoot.
those r the girlsss from my group :)
they actually took more photos together cs my individual shoot was taking a lot of time.
they left me and took soo many pics :(:(

in the 1st photo, my hair looks OLD. and kinda stupid.
But the hair was all gooood moments after that. see the pics below that :P

Now I'm in the middle of a try out.
the 1st try out.
and I'm failing.
Physics was brighter than that.
Biology was...
well, the whole class didnt study for biology since we took those photoshoots the day before the try out.
English was fine, got 4 mistakes. Gah.
Missed one at listening, 3 at reading.
those 3 r stupiddddddd mistakes, and I still think that my answer is right. Silly me.
I rarely get a 100 on English. It's like always 80-90smthg.
Chem is tomorrow. I think I'm ready.
Wish me much much luck!
And I'm prayingggg that the math wont get a 0.

what we could have been, 10:25 PM.
Monday, January 18, 2010

had my class' proficiat photoshoot at Novotel.
My group consisted of vina, sasa, lauren, ivan, herman, and me. 
We got the 3PM slot.
make up at 1PM.
But at the d-day, the 1st group was late by 1,5 hours.
So, it was like a domino effect.
My group was shot at 4.30PM, bcs we, the girls, finished our make up at 4PM.
It took Ivan 20mins or so to get to Novotel.
We took a couple of pics individually and by group.
It was fineee.
My individual photo was fine.
it was not ugly at all.
I didnt look THAT fat in the pic.
took plenty of pics with sasa's phone.
they actually took more pics than me since my individual photo took a really really long time.
Feet were super soreeeeeeeee since I wore that heels like 8 hrs straight.

Got the first try out today.
It was fine.
I hope the score would pass 5,25.
I didnt expect my score to be soooo high since this is the 1st try out.

what we could have been, 10:37 PM.
Monday, January 11, 2010

This speech is killing meeee~ 
God help me.
I havent write a single word.

what we could have been, 9:41 PM.

yampunnnnn akhirnya bisa juga nampikin editor nya
thankyouuuu Marcia muach2 :D
and akhirnyaa isa buka ini blog hihihihi :B

today is super super tiring omagahhhh.
idk why.
maybe bcs I was paying a FULL attention to biology and understands what Borem said! yay me! :D
not so much story today.
maybe next time. :)

thank youuuu fer siska for checking this blog :)
I thought I wud hv to make another one =="

what we could have been, 7:24 PM.
Saturday, January 9, 2010

my blogger wont gimme the usual entry settings.
why? :,(
cant give colours, cant underline, cant change the font's size and the font itself. gah.
help me, anyone???

what we could have been, 4:58 PM.

LOVE this song lately.

Starstrukk - 3oh!3 ft. Katy Perry

Nice legs, Daisy dukes, makes a man go [whistle]
Thats the way they all come through like [whistle whistle]
Low-cut, see-through shirts that make you [whistles]
Thats the way she come through like [whistles]

Cause I just set them up, just set them up, just set them up to knock them down
Cause I just set them up, just set them up, just set them up to knock them down

I think I should know how to make love to something innocent without leaving my fingerprints out,now
L-O-V-E's just another word I never learned to pronounce
How, do I say I'm sorry cause the word is never gonna come out now
L-O-V-E's just another word i never learned to pronounce

Tight jeans, Double D's makin' me go [whistles]
All the people on the street know [whistles whistles]
Iced-out, lit-up make the kids go [whistles]
All the people on the street know [whistle whistle]

Cause I just set them up, just set them up, just set them up to knock them down
Cause I just set them up, just set them up, just set them up to knock them down

I think I should know how to make love to something innocent without leaving my fingerprints out now
L-O-V-E's just another word i never learned to pronounce
how, do I say I'm sorry cause the word is never gonna come out now
L-O-V-E's just another word I never learned to pronounce

You know that type of sh*t
Just don't work on me
Whistlin' and tryin' to Flirt with me
Don't take it personally
'Cause we were never in love
It doesn't really matter
Who you say you are
Singin' out the window
Of your car
Find another girl across the Bar
'Cause L-O-V-E is not what this was.

I think I should know how to make love to something innocent without leaving my fingerprints out now
L-O-V-E's just another word I never learned to pronounce

How do I say I'm sorry 'cause the word is never gonna come out
now L-O-V-E's just another word I'll never learn to pronounce

credit: http://www.elyricsworld.com/starstrukk_lyrics_30h!3_ft_katy_perry.html and google.com :)

what we could have been, 4:51 PM.
Monday, January 4, 2010

Sinlui sucksss.
the 1st day of school and biology, physics, chem r starting already.
while chinese, english and EE didnt start.
Oh, indonesia did throw us a task.
anddd already went to alfalink for all my uni stuff.
turns out I still hv to wait for my 2nd semester report card.

the day was okay.
still miss my holiday though.
miss my home.
miss my parents.

Actually made some new year resolutions.
didnt make these years before.
1. get accepted in WAI
2. Aced the UNAS and my 2nd semester report card
3. Fixed my broken love life
4. Get a whole LOT thinner

what we could have been, 4:31 PM.


16. awesomely awesome.

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